vendredi 28 octobre 2016

Under every stone

Though she’s been loved and cherished,
It appears that time makes them vanish,
Away in the distance, she still sees their shadow
Growing in the silence of the absence of tomorrow.

She’s been noticed and she’s been held,
Yet it feels that she keeps needing to be fed,
To be certain that she’s worthy of attention,
That she won’t be the lonely exception.

Some will say it’s insecurities and being alone
Doesn’t have to be lonely.
But us, mere humans, can pretend that we
Needn’t anyone, still we long to be known.

Go ahead and yearn for love,
Look under every stone,
Give it out, bless them with your affection,
Let them see your truest reflection.

And remember that love isn’t about sight
Outer beauty, romance in black and white.
Love is a poem to be written with another,
With silences and even spelling errors.

It is a song you might sing until he responds,
With notes deeper than yours, humming along.
It is the knowledge of a future given and received,
Of an unexpected opportunity mutually seized.


So by all means, seek and find the love you dream of,
Go ahead, embrace the yearning from above,
But never settle, for something plain or tinted
By fear of not finding what you’ve always wanted.

You’ve been loved and cherished,
Though It appears time makes them vanish
Away in the distance, look out for who might come along
He could be humming the very melody of your song.

mercredi 28 septembre 2016

Always

Every year, 
One adds on. 
Getting old, maturing, growing up, 
A priviledge denied to crowds, 
Which I welcome with open arms, 
Calling life to fill me.
May mine be useful, 
Lightening the burden of many
Dressing the wounds of others. 

May my home be made of 
A table, 
A pot
And many chairs around, 
Welcoming to all.
May they come in to find
Grace, Forgiveness
Love and humour. 
May they recover their desire to live, 
When they will know themselves to be loveable
And loved. 

I have a whole life ahead of me, 
Or so it seems. 
It isn't mine to hold. 
It embraces my dreams, 
But it shall embrace, forever more, 
The broken hearts, the closed off ones, 
Who do not dare to live any longer. 

May my eyes brush the dry skin, 
Meet the lowered glance, 
The tainted eye, 
The troubled mind.

I wish to give who I am
To those who have nothing, 
Who were never told
They were worth something.

May the love rooted in my heart, 
The unconditionnal affection I was given, 
Be the fuel I run on, 
To find the outcast and the lost. 

My life is ahead of me, 
Lord let me say, 
On the day it withers, 
I gave, plenty, 
I received, plenty more, 
I lived under the heavens, 
Today I journey home, 
With a spirit filled with memories, 
Of hopes regained, 
That I could bless,
The ones we had forgotten. 

jeudi 8 septembre 2016

Low.

I am in a garden, 
I stand, underserving, broken even.
Rotten by greed, whithering hope.
I have questions burning my mind, 
Doubts and fears piercing my heart.
I stand in a garden, 
Pondering on my loweliness. 

In this garden, 
He stands.
Pierced hands, 
Wounded feet and side.
He stands.
Taller than me, 
Purely holy.

He has known grief and seperation, 
Violence and betrayal.
Still He stands, 
With love blazing in his eyes.

Love for whom? Based on what? I ask. 

He extends his hands, pierced as I said.
He gives me his name and clothes me in his robe.

When the fabric touches my shoulders 
And his skin mine, 

My heart rips in two. 

It spills out the wonder of this outrageous Grace and love, 
Pouring over me freely.

There is nothing I can do to pay Him back, 
To make myself worthy of this Mercy.
It makes my soul uncomfortable, I wrestle.
I want to deserve it.
Worse.
I need to deserve it.
To save my pride and my flesh.

He says I'll lose it if I try to pay it.
That a loan it is not, 
A prize it can't be.

It is a gift, given for free, 
That shall be received or lost.

So I give in, I bow down.
I earned it not, I deserve nothing.
Yet He gave it all, that I might know Him.

vendredi 2 septembre 2016

Dawn and Dusk

We share light and dark.
We might disagree on some things.
There might be arguments at times.
But I know that what's in you is in me.

I wish to love with no agenda or expectations,
With no action plan to turn you into something you can't be.
I don't understand where you come from, or how you feel,
For I have never walked the walk in those shoes of yours.

The dark and light that burn in you,
Are in me too.
I come in love.
Love that is fierce and loyal.
Not self-interested.
Patience at its core.

I refuse to pick and chose where my compassion lies.
May my allegiance be to who needs me,
Whose heart I can mend,
Whose freedom I can help.

I will build places where you
Are free to dwell.
It might take long,
For I only have two hands.
Not much more to give than my
Loyalty,
Not much more to pledge than my
Fidelity.

I'd rather be known for loving too much
And putting people before rules,
Than for letting the letter,
Burn its lines so deep in my soul
That I forget that
You and I
We share
Dark and
Light.
That you are not I
Or I you
But we claim
Humanity
Depth
Vulnerability
So much more.

I share the light and the dark
That dwell in your soul
They roam in my heart.
We are sons and daugthers of the Day.
Not always worthy, or pure,
But We are trying.

The light and dark in your soul
I know them too.



Dwelling on Heaven

Heaven.
What if Heaven was beautiful?
Raising hands in worship a constant choice,
Singing praises a natural flow?
What if Heaven isn't about a crowd glorifying a divinity,
But about a Father and His children loving one another?

I've wondered and pondered on Heaven,
Fretting at the thought of a mold I would have to fit in,
A personality I would leave at the door and
My sincerity that would be no more.

Heaven can't be grey or ruled like a prison.
Heaven can't be lifeless, veiled with dullness.
Heaven cannot be worse than this Earth.

Heaven has to be...
Good.

Saved by Grace, this I know.
I shall enter the heavenly place
Feel the magnificence of His mercy
Know that my presence there is undeserved
But desired and free.

See His face,
Hear His voice,
Meet the One
My soul loves.

To be in love for Eternity.
To be loved forever.

When He'll call my name,
I will run, astonished that He would chose me
And transported by this reality.
When He'll call my name,
What joy and wonder shall fill me.

For I will come face to face
With the One I don't deserve
But receive fully.

I love Him in part,
I see Him a little,
I hear Him at times,

I will
Love,
See and
Hear
Fully then.

Heaven is a place of Love,
When Soul and Maker meet,
To never part again.

jeudi 9 juin 2016

Here comes the Lion

One dark hour, one quick incidence

One note creating a ghastly dissonance.

Within seconds, an outpour of deadly rain

Resigned, the Lion lies, with no mane.

There's no getting up nor fighting back 

Surrounded by a blood-thirsty wolf-pack. 


The roaring Lion was unequivocally conquered, 

In the blink of an eye, his life slaughtered. 

The wolves retreated, their brava suddenly weak, 

Leaving the air filled with their callous shriek.



What now? Asks the Lion. Where to go so I can disappear?

In the caves of my shame, but there who will hear? 

The cry of my heart, the lament of my wounded soul?

Who will tend my bruises, my feeble nature console? 

I will drag my dying breath to the end of the road, 

And there, maybe, only maybe, my pain will erode. 


I wrestled to get myself out of their grasp

I kicked, wailed, begged til, with a final gasp

My will sunk, surrendered, no option left

But to see my soul marked with a new vast cleft.


It's as if no one heard, no one paid attention, 

The vast vibrant world had for me no compassion.

The birds kept on singing, the wind kept on blowing

The trecherous creation watched and stood without pipping.

Then they ran away and it was all over



Lion, worthy, sweet, dear Lion. 

Your mane is gone, your skin covered in tear .

I can see you are fading, drowning in despair.

You groan, in anguish, your soul whispers it's forever



I've seen others wounded, ashamed, believing time is no healer

In the midst of their pain, they are blind to the future

Acting as if already dead, Memories like feasting vultures.



It ain't so. It ain't so. I tell you it ain't so.

Hold on to my words, cling on to every word falling from my lips

I will sing you lullabies, melodies that will soothe your soul

Planting hope in your sorrow, sowing seeds of joy in your midst.



I will wait, rocking you to sleep, and watch as your mane

Grows back, warm, full, welcoming a bright new dawn.

Strength will return, skies will clear and clouds be gone.

You shall walk, run, wild and free, you shall roar again.



Take heart Lion, worthy, sweet Lion,

You are who you always were.

Take heart Lion, worthy, sweet Lion, 

You will remain who you always were.










jeudi 26 mai 2016

Are trees lonesome ?

Where the trees die alone,
No man ever walks.
They live their lives, short or long,
Amongst the forest, gathered in a green crowd,
They tell tales of trees once great,
Foliage brighter than the morning sun.


Where trees die alone,
They care not to think
“ If I fall and not a human soul
Is there to see it,
Did I fall still?”.
For, there, man is nothing but a rumour,
A distant fantasy and thrilling danger.

Where trees die alone,
Alone they are not.
The hills and their kin will
Sing them down to the ground.
The low branches will softly
Caress their bark,
And as they breathe their last breath
The trees fall into a sheltered rest.

Make it leave.

When Tomorrow is yesterday,
You might understand the hows
And whys of things of the past.
You could be tricked into guilt,
You might start to reflect.
Don’t look at the past with
The eyes of tomorrow,
For you didn’t know then what
You now know.
Regret will eat your dreams
And kill your bliss.

Feed it a bit
And it shall eat you whole.

Rather
Starve it out.
Make it go back to the
Darkness.

Make it leave with its suitcases
Full of envy, judgement,
Cynicism.

You weren’t made for Regret.
You were shaped for Hope.
You were created for Joy.
You are meant to try
And fail,
But always attempt your hardest
Aim for the best,
Fly the highest
You can.

And give Regret no hold
On You.
It is the Worry of yesterday
Looking down on Tomorrow
Trying to steal your flowers
And dry out the grass.
Make it leave
For it only brings sorrow.

jeudi 19 mai 2016

Cracked wings


He is sitting on my heart.
He is sitting on my heart.

I can't help it if he is sitting on my heart, 
If he gave me his name and a bit of his blood,
If he is the root to the branch I bloom on.

He is sitting on my heart.


I saw in him a hero with cracked wings.
He had wanted to soar too fast, too high, 
With the courage of innocence and youth
He had missed, by so little, so few, 
The wisdom that comes with the years.

He is sitting on my heart.
I envy his spirit
I admire his battle
I praise his dignity
Mingled with insolence

He was a bird unable to fly
Whose eyes couldn't brush the skies
By fear of crumbling under the weight of grief.
Sometimes innocence cannot be regained.
He had lost the flippancy of childhood drawings, 
The liberty of the soul that had been spared.

The journey is long for a bird who cannot fly.
Contemplate these wings, majestic, 
These feathers moire and bright
Which momentum has deserted.

Still he learnt to walk.
His coat kept its shine
He went to the end of the pilgrimage, 
Never counted the steps.

Did he will his audacity to me?
Would I, too, have tried to fly?
His legacy echoes in my mind, 
Like the song of an eagle
Calling me to greater heights.

He is sitting on my heart, 
He never abandoned me.
I sewed him on my heart
To keep him in my memory.


To my grand father, Michel Barberon,  who survived the concentration camps in Buchenwald, who took risks but never saw himself as a hero or a brave soul.

mercredi 18 mai 2016

Arabica

Early morning, coffee covered with amber foam, 
A table at a cafe, the cacophony of people around, 
I hear the sigh of the appliances, the scream of steam, 
I smell the brown aroma, the whiff of tea in china cups, 
I taste lemon tarts and butter croissants, 


In the midst of this morning noise, the southern Spanish accents echoes. 
I pay attention because
This voice comes with a smile, 
Which comes with a look, 
Which comes with a move.

Every day, around eleven am, 
I hear this accent, 
I see this smile, 
I meet this look, 
I respond to this move,

This moment never comes promises. 
I know nothing of him other than
His country
The tone of his voice.

He doesn't know me except that
I like strong black coffee
I'm not from this land.

And every morning,  

He brews the nectar with zing, 
He starts off my day
Like the song of a clock
He lightens up my steps
He warms up my smile

No strings attached, 
No promises, 
No identity even.

But he hung up my drawing
In the corner of the coark board
He grined subtly and
Read my name.